Milestone

Today I am 9 weeks. My first pregnacy stopped developing at 8.5 weeks, so I have officially cleared that hurdle. The past couple of days have been wrenching as I awaited today's ultrasound, complete with miscarriage nightmares (which in my case tend to come true), slight red spotting, and seemingly disappearing pregnancy symptoms (which have magically reappeared now that I know I'm still pregnant).

Despite gnawing fears, I climbed onto the table this morning to meet my fate. It was my first appointment with my regular OB, and he was so excited to see me - he gave me a huge hug. He understands what I have been through and is ready to hold my hand as much as I need it. I was shaking and crying before the ultrasound, and I refused to look at the screen until he said it was ok. Once I did look, I couldn't immediately see the heartbeat and of course freaked out, but he quickly showed it to me, and sure enough it was still flashing away. The baby is a much bigger blob now, and I could tell what was the head, arms, and legs. It was even wiggling around a bit! I am thrilled and relieved to have made it this far, and I think this one just may go the distance.